Adios, Disparo Estrella.

I promised myself that this post will be the last time I will be talking about you.

It took me awhile to think and reminisce everything.

Now, I think that I'm okay, well at least right?

I'm okay. I'm going to be okay today or maybe soon, I don't know but I will be.
Sorry, I just feel I'm going to explode any minute if I don' type what I feel. But please do not pity me.
I don't have the courage to tell it to everyone. All I do is tell them that it didn't bother me yet honestly it does. All the time.

Now, I wan this to end. I'm going to let everything slip off my hands
because I thought you were my star, But I'm afraid that you're just a shooting star who came across the starry night.

I'm putting my feelings and heartaches inside the jars and sealing it. Hopefully, no one would attempt to break it because I don't want to feel it again but I hope someday, someone would open a new jar for me and fill it with contentment and happiness.

To you, thank you for everything. Thank you for the joy, the butterflies, the laughs and the endless banats we shared. I'll miss everything about you but I think it's time to let it fade.

Iodine Lutetium Vanadium Europium. 

Goodbye. 

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A track title

Maybe I'm still into you. 

Maybe I feel empty because you've got something that belongs to me.

And you forgot to give it back.

Now, all I feel is sadness yet I always hide them behind my smile.

I don't want to look like a mess nor look like shit.

I always look at the positive side, now I'm having a hard time. I force and convince my self that I should move forward but how about those memories? It keeps on hunting me every night. I can't see the things I used to see because every piece of it  reminds me of you.  

Don't worry I'm not blaming you, you are free from the guilt and now please be happy. I'm blaming myself for caring too much and saying that everything is okay when it's not.

Curse the feeling i'm feeling right now. Damn it.

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1:14

It's 1:14 am and let me do some poetry.

This thoughts of mine,

bugs me all the damn time.

What ifs corrupted my mind

now I can't sleep all the time.

This feeling that your about to mess my entire life happened.

It sucks bigtime whenever I care for you still, I miss you so bad. 

How do feelings fade? To be honest I can't find someone better than you. There's something in you that I'll always crave for, your attention maybe? 

Do you miss me? because I do. I still do. Damn.

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